Think of a forest and it's natural layers.   There is the deep dark soil from which all arises, and goes back to in the Life cycle.   It's rich with life that has been before, and is constantly ready to arise after.    This is the Vast Emptiness, the Dazzling Dark, that you've probably  heard about before.   With existance, as with Earth, there is a 'soil'  from which all is arising and going back to, in it's own life cycle.   Soil, and Emptiness, are extremely simple, yet deep forms of existance, for this is where all is accepted, processed, decomposed, reconstructed.   From this nothingness, everything comes forth.   From this emptiness, we arise like everything else.   Like a tree planted in soil, our personal self, our entire existance, gave birth from this emptiness.   Now, like a tree, we must keep strong deep roots with the soil we arise from, to grow as healthy aware beings.   Here is where humanities problem lies.   This is what is trying to be explained to you, through philosophies and life lessons.  What would happen to a tree that doesn't have it's roots firmly planted in the ground if  a wind storm came?   Would it not be torn off the ground, with the wind throwing it in the direction it wished?   Do you not feel when life gets hard that you are being thrown around aimlessly?   Do you not feel that you are a mystery to yourself, to what life is about?   Do you not go about the world trying to feel connected somehow?   This is your being, your life, trying to ground itself back into it's roots.   We are so disconnected, we are trees that think we don't need soil to grow.   But we do.   We will learn this sooner or later, the hard way if not the easy.    Now the question arises;   How does one ground the self?   How do we ground our roots firmly into the soil to grow connected?  For one, even if you don't understand the emptiness, even if you have never come accross it just yet, know that it's there.   See, there may be obstalces that you have to get out of way to become sensitive to it once again.    Some of us have denied it's existance so long, we have piled rocks and concrete on top of it, built an artificial greenhouse to create a sense of safety or shelter, or life.   In  other words, we've created perimeters in our existance of what we will accept and not accept for our reality.  We limit people, subjects, even certain experiences, so that we can continue to think we are fine.   But everyday it becomes more clear that we are not.   and it's time we all had some fresh air.   So the first step, is to observe, and maybe initially scrutinize your life.   Put yourself out there to what your normally senstitive to , to what you fear, avoid, become uncomfortable with.   Become aware of your emotional response, how it creates strong checmical reactions within yourself urging you to respond, but don't.   If you pull through, you will see that it  was all nothing more than a mechanical response, a behavioral pattern you created as you created the shelter of what you now consider to be yourself.   See, its' very likely that you grew up unaware that you were doing this, because this is how you were brought up, this is what you were surrounded with.   You were taught to react and then identify with these reactions, and depending on which ones you reacted the most with, and define them as yourself. This is misidentification.  Nothing labels you.   It is simply an emotional reaction that can arise within you, like any other emotion, be it love, hapiness, despair, or peace.   No difference.   All chemical reactions arising in your body according to existance.  Might be easier to read, but when you begin to become more aware of all the emotions you're constantly arising within yourself, when you being to experiment with your reaction, or holding it back, here are the lessons, that will help you come to the truth of yourself.  Here is where you begin to lightly crack the concrete.   Remember as your getting to know yourself, the point is to become aware of who you REALLY are.  This journey of reconnection will not be easy.   It may last days, months, years, or even lifetimes.  I can't tell you how long the Journey will last, or how much chaos you may encounter.    I don't know how much baggage you carry or what lessons you have chosen to learn through your self.   As from the soil arise a grand variety of plants and life, that his how much variety there is between the personal existance of each.   Some of us are old trees, some of us are just born sprouts.   Just give it your best.   Keep digging until you find the soil, and when you do, sink your toes into the mud, sink your being deep deep, connect with it, let it remind you what it is to be truly alive, what has true meaning.   What is truth. From it you arise, and to it you will return when you cease to exist as a personal self..and ...The suprise..how you will come to understand this personal self you now define as yourself, because like emotions you will come too see how much of you it really is, and if it is really you at all.      I now wish you an amusing journey in your play with eternity.  Bon voyage! ;-) 

This is for those arising a lot of emotion, for those feeling like they are getting lost in the emotions, or those who feel it's getting the best of them.   Also, for those who are experiencing harder times in life, a disconnection, or dark night, as a reminder, that they are understood, they can keep going, and that they are capable of letting go.   To remind them that liberty can be just around the corner, that they could very likely be on the verge to finally breaking through.   When we have never felt the heat from the spotlight more, yet it's like no one is watching or caring.  We get run over on our path sometimes, several times..but hopefully it gives some strength to know there are those who have been there, survived similar battles, and they are not alone. 
 
I recommend to link up to the video, read it at steady pace with the music, and then watch the video afterwards, with the thoughts or tears that come in restrospect.   It will hit home.  

Rabbit in your Headlights  

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BIdpCthQ8G0  

You have been treading down this path, searching, trying to understand, for quite sometime now.   Your heart is heavy with emotions, your mind aching with questions and more questions of philisophical riddles that seem completely unsolvable.   You look about the world, and everything feels disconnected. You have reached out, but nothing will bring any more comfort.  Life is seeming more and more meaningless, confusing and noisy.   You  walk about, feeling like a stranger to the world you live in, an alien to the lifestyle of others, and nothing, absolutely nothing is consoling you in this moment, as your spirit yearns to be understood just one tiny bit. Just one tiny bit you ask. Yet, despite of your quiet suffered prayers, it only continues to suffer in how alone it finds itself to be.  You try to survive a normal day, as you're easily poked with living a life that no longer makes any sense, because it no longer feels like a life you want to live, it no longer feels like a life you connect with. You can hardly handle work, or  pay attention at  school, or even simple interaction with others, meditation, any sort of engaging act is extremly difficult, for at every corner you feel that you are about to burst.  You feel this is the last you can take, you are ready to surrender, give up, you only want to float off into nothingness, far far away.  Others may have tried to ask you if you're ok, why you're not going out, or maybe nobody notices at all, it doesn't make a difference,  because you have no answers, you have no way of expressing what is going on.   All you know, is that you have gone too far down this maze, you look up from the abyss at what was once your life, you can't turn back, you're too different now,and all you can allow, is yourself to continue on.   Your dizzy with confusion, but your still pushing further, there is tears in your eyes from frustration, anger in your spirit from misunderstanding, you feel pushed around by life and are at your last nerve, and you just want to scream out this despair, you want to be allowed to fall to the ground, the pain is too heavy, the sorrow to deep.    Do it. Allow yourself to do this very thing your yearn.   Allow yourself to accept all this burden and finally in whatever emotion it arises, for once and for all, let it go.  Let it go. Burst, let your heart burst, let your body ache, and cry until you are empty.  Scream, cry out that pain.  Face it.  It's going to be ok.   When you are done, lay in silence, feel it all lifting away, recognize that you have survived a battle, and have cleared path for truth, by facing yourself with courage, and no hesitation.  Have absolutely no hesitation in letting go.    Next time around..you'll be more ready.   Next time around, you'll be stronger, wiser, and more quiet.   Keep going until there is nothing in the way, there is nothing to throw you around, because you know where control is, you know where liberty lies, and nothing can entrap you, because you will no longer allow it. You're embracing all, and letting all go.   Don't ever stop letting go. 

In the last months, I have experienced a silence, so beautiful, so incredible, any words that I used to try to conceptualized were only an intent to taint what needed not a drop of color.  It stood out above all in its vibrant simplicity, in it's incredible clarity, it needed nothing more.  For the most part, I sank into this state of being happily, and had urges of disappearing, melting into to this grand heavenly nothingness....there was nothing I'd ever wanted more.   My self, as a person, anything I could ever be, or do, was obscure in comparison.  I just wanted to sit in it, become it.  Here is where the 'dilema' arises.  This new found sense of being requires little to non activity, and what is recieved is more grandious than endless hours of working, desiring and wishing and aspiring had ever brought to me in the living world, making what was the life that had to go on, quite irrating and tedious.  Useless.  It was like knowing heaven and coming back to Earth.  I quickly learned this was beyond escpasim though.  I knew it before, tearing down the self, facing those inner demons is not at all a time for it, and as much as it seemed it now, this wasn't it either. 
When the universe comes to you, you can become so immersed in it, you readily want to dissolve into it, but the point is never to loose yourself.  Even in the heaven of nothingeverythingness the point is to face myself, staying a self as the universe penetrated my being.  Letting it sink into every pore.  It wants to be tangible.  The unexpressed seeks expression.  It is not that there are no words for it, it's that we haven't found them.  It seeks growth, through our surrender.  Allowing this is what brings divinity.  Magnificence wants to be part of everyday life.  Every moment.   Our war to merge ourselves with the universe's intent.  Be part of it.  Be aware of it.  Push it foward.  Sunrise is near.  New beginnings are calling from near ends.  Eternity wants to be understood by life in the third dimension.  So I laugh. and I let it be.

Link to the Song.   Once again, listen to the music while reading, and learn, a bit of what it is to flow ;-) .....

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dBD47xHSnRY

And 1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8...

hips shake, from side, to side, side, to side. Slowly turning  her hips shake, her arms flow, turning to you,  beat by beat, side to side, side, to side. Her body flows, waving  to you seductively to come closer. You begin to feel a rising energy surge from the bottom of your spine as your heart increases pulse at every beat. Her torso dancing a ritual, her breasts dancing in the light.  You are stunned still, time slows to a complete stop when she gazes straight into your eyes, spearing right through you with a solid expression.  Sly smile. Her body glows yellow under the low flame.   Her shadows, not dark enough to keep her from shining in this moment, in every moment, as she moves for you, just for you, her body is flowing to the beat, beat by beat, for you.  You stare back into her eyes. You feel every part of you begin to pulse, her every move widening your eyes, making your mind still, and  every part of your body pulsating this heat, this beat. Ooh...the heart beats, and you are feeling more and more ALIVE. She continues to move while everything else is still.  You are flowing with her hip to hip, from side, to side, side, to side.    Rising with the increasing beat of your heart.     Your spine is alive. Every part of you erect in attention to the flow.  The very depth of you comes into full recognition of this flow, and you become aware of something you've always known.   As she comes oh so close, and you feel within you her every vibration, you sink into her touch, and begin to penetrate the depths of her, until in every pore of your body her beat is your beat, her hips, your hips, her flow your flow, her life, your life....and you just surrender to her every move, her every desire, forget yourself in herself, in her light ..Ooh so bright...and you realize, in the flowing, in the shaking, of hips, and beats, from side, to side., she is only showing you your -own- very -light.   Your very own flow.  Her every vibration, your vibration, her being, your being, her love, your love....and as you surrender the idea of you completly to her void, and the voice of opinion fades into her distant darkness, she sinks into the depths of your being, and with her you eternaly flow, in liberation, and exctacy.   Her beauty only here to remind you of your divinity.   Her flow only here to liberate you.   and in her arms your realize why this sight belongs only to you.  Only to you. 

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Now listen to the song again, with the lyrics:

Ohh........

Can anybody see the light

Where the morn meets the dew and the tide rises

Did you realise, no one can see inside your view

Did you realise, forwhy this sight belongs to you



Ohh........

Just set aside your fears of life

Thru this sole desire



Done it warning

Done it now

This ain't real

On in this side



Done it warning

Done it now

This ain't real

On in this side



[INSTRUMENTAL]



Done it warning

Done it now

This ain't real



Done it waring

Done it now

This ain't real

On in this side



Ohh............

Can anybody see the light

Were the morn meets the dew and the tide rises

Did you realise, no one can ever see inside you view

Did you realise, forewhy this sight belongs to you



Beautifully she does speak...to let it flow...just let it flow...

Clickity on the link.  Hear the song.  Read the Blog.   At once.  Don't rush. Read the words with the music...Let it flow.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VX39wqGzTSs

You live.   Your swimming in the complete illusion of your narrative.  You think it's you, your full identity, and you know nothing more.  In moments it all seems fine.... Then begins the disassembling of all you have ever known, and the recognition of what you were calling you.   The machine.   You recognize that all you have ever known is this machine you called you.   You see it's parts arising, reacting, urging you to continue in its patterns, to feed it, to keep it alive.    Doors beging to open and revolve as you begin to get glimpses of what is beyond, or better yet what's always been there.  You see the machine more and more clearly each day, that the idea of you falls apart a little bit more, each day you recognize that this machine isn't you a little more clearly, each day the machine fights to keep you in the mentality it's been trained to keep you in.    Now you're watching the machine work.  Your watching the life it's created unfold.  Your watching what these patterns create and the reactions this arises in the world.   The voice speaks the mannerisms its always known, the way you were misidentified, it was only carrying out what it knew to do, this misidentification, because you kept telling it, this is who you are, this is  where you were fine.  But your not.  Now you know, now you realize you are not fine.  Then begin to arise deeper truths.  This energy, this stillness that you've only briefly known, begins to sink in perspective.  First floats around you, then penetrates your being into its depths and takes hold.   You know you are not this machine, just a moving corpse. You know you are not just the dramas, the troubles, the joys.  You are  not the emotions arising.  You know you are not the thoughts.  Spinning realizations.  Spinning vibrations run through your veins, inflate them, swell into your being, and when you feel you are about to explode...you surrender.   You surrender to this new unknown that arises, to every lie, to every truth, illusion, to everything that you've ever known and you give in to this new form of formlessness that arises.   The vibration penetrates you deep, and arises perspectives you have never known, yet always known.  The voice tries to speak, but it is now faint in the distance.  The heart beats this feeling, gets nervous in the anticipation that within its depths knows is finally arising.   Spinning fury of unwinding the illusions begins. Then it snaps, it shakes you free, in an instant, time stops and you know what it is to be completely free. Then you begin to arise again, recognize this world again, and it feels like you are being lifted again, and the world never known like before.  Watching in a new weird oneness all unfold.   All is arising right infront of you, with you.   And you realize, you and everything are one. You are none.    All is energy.  At first it arises with emotions, with the residue ideas of what you thought you were, and you feel like you are still being torn apart.  And you are.  At least what you thought you were. Other times it feels like your stuck in some movie projection or video game you can't get out of,  but then... begins that constant tapping into this depth you've always been.   That's when you feel the spinning plates going in full revolution. When a feeling of liberation becomes so alive. You feel the movement of everything around you, of everything unfolding,everthing arising... and when still enough, everything, even the idea of you, is still enough to just watch.  You just flow. You flow with everything.  Arise with everything.  It's dropping all resistance. Letting all flow, letting all go.  Letting yourself die and be reborn, while knowing you never die, and you never are reborn.   Again. Again. and Again.   Let it flow. 


” While you make pretty speeches
I'm being cut to shreds
You feed me to the lions
A delicate balance

And this just feels like spinning plates
I'm living in cloud cuckoo land
And this just feels like spinning plates
My body is floating down the muddy river”

So remember, It will make pretty little speeches.  You will be cut to shreds.   You will be fed to the lions.   It is all a delicate balance (even when in chaotic collision).  This is a cuckoo land.   But let it spin through.  Let it flow.   Please, no matter what. Remember. Let it flow. 

The Waking

I wake to sleep, and take my waking slow.
I feel my fate in what I cannot fear.
I learn by going where I have to go.

We think by feeling. What is there to know?
I hear my being dance from ear to ear.
I wake to sleep, and take my waking slow.

Of those so close beside me, which are you?
God bless the Ground! I shall walk softly there,
And learn by going where I have to go.

Light takes the Tree; but who can tell us how?
The lowly worm climbs up a winding stair,
I wake to sleep, and take my waking slow.

Great Nature has another thing to do
To you and me, so take the lively air,
And, lovely, learn by going where to go.

This shaking keeps me steady. I should know.
What falls away is always. And is near.
I wake to sleep, and take my waking slow.
I learn by going where I have to go.

- Theodore Roethke

L = ta²

Love = (truth)(acceptance)²

The equation I have come to figure the components necessary to create true love in every moment of our life experience. 

Acceptance =   the full embracement of life

The more we accept in our reality, the more we are shown and come to understand.    Why is it that as individuals we hold different perspectives?   Among varying reasons, largely because of what we come to accept and reject in our life through behavioral reaction to experience.   When we constantly accept our current reality, whether a state or euphoria, or unseen tragedy, the experience passes more smoothly through the heart, and greater awareness allows us to have a clearer mind as we witness the experience.  The lack of acceptance creates divisions, rejections, attatchments, that create tunnel vision, for we limit the body and mind to one certain type of experience or perspective.   In achieving full acceptance of life, we open our hearts and mind to all life has to offer.  The more we accept, the more fully that we embrace life.  This is why acceptance is squared.   The goal is to multiply the acceptance in our life double each day.   Each day gaining more and more acceptance through the varying experiences of life presented. 

Truth = full acceptance

In gained acceptance, we open the door to great wisdom.   With acceptance comes the willingness to learn, to know, and to understand life.   Full acceptance elimnates the prejudices, fears, and mental limitation created through ignorance.   As we accept all aspects of life, embrace every small and large moment and event, we can take a step back and become quiet observers of our life, and see with clarity our current life situations and possibilities.   All this brings in constant truth about currents events and situations, and eventually through full embracement of life, the truth about our lives, reality, and universe.   The truth is in front of us constantly, at every moment, from beginning to end, staring us in the face.   When you fully accept, you get the friendly slap of knowing it was there all along.  It wasn't the truth that was missing, but the personal willingness to see it, to expand the being enough to embrace it, to grow enough to digest it.   So in gained acceptance the truths shown multiply, a infinite multiple that will change our lives, and that bring us to the following equation:

Love = ta²

When we accept, fully embrace life, we are saying we are willing to gain the truth of experience, and with the deep wisdom of truth, comes the in-exhaustable ability to love.   We become enamoured with every aspect of life, every person we meet, every place we go, every detail we find.  Every moment is an opportunity to love, yet it flows out so fluidly, opportunity is an overstatement, for it will take no effort.   Love will just flow.  Life will flow.   All reactions, observations, interactions, will be made out of love.   Love will  take care of our lives everywhere we go, no matter what experience we are presented with.   Love will fill our being, our hearts with such force, the mind will fall into a peaceful quietude, eyes will be wise and kind, as the body feels a constant vibration of energy making it feel incredibly alive.  

Einstein came to the equation E = mc² and changed the history of science  by inviting all to see the endless amount of energy that can be concentrated into a tiny bit of mass.   As energy is endless so is Love, and even though we are just tiny little beings living in a small little planet in a vast and mysterious universe, we are capable of holding tremendous amounts of Love.   So many barriers can be broken, if we allow ourselves to truly Love life.   Love is the force that drives this Energy to continue living.   All we have to do is be willing to see the possibility.   It is a possibility that will change history, humanity, and life.  

It's waking up.

It's peering through. 

In every dark corner, and bright street light.

In every party, restauarant, in every home.  

It's pushing through.  

Finding it's way in through YOU. 

You the limited perspective for some.

I the limited perspective for others.

That there is none.

That we are all. 

Displayed in a varied boquet of experience.

Learn.

Know.

Become. 

IT's pushing through. 

That symbolic penetration. 

In the cool of the air.

In the dark on the night.

In the day.

In the light. 

So bright.

So tight.

Watching.

Dissolving.

Nothingness

Great Somethingness

Come home

It is home

You are home.

a delicate balance of perspectives..or a chaotic collision of, depends how you want to look at it.  

:-)

Get over yourself

Get over your self

Get OVER your self

Get OVER You R Self

Get OVER you are self

Get OVER 'YOU' are ?Self?

....words....the trancendence of words....funny....